Junior year of college, we’re supposed to have everything figured out. We know how to study, we know who our friends our, we (hopefully) know our major, we know what works and what doesn’t, and most importantly we finally feel like we know what we are doing with our lives. Right?
I’m not arguing that we don’t have some things figured out, because we do for the most part. But when does it become easier?
I’m a junior and I still get homesick, stressed, overwhelmed, angry, and emotional. Yet I feel like I should be on top of the world. I feel like I should have everything figured out. Most importantly, I feel like I should have to be an adult and grow up.
I feel all of this confusion and anxiety about my future and then I take a moment and think, wait I am only 20 years old..
Since when has any twenty-year-old had their whole future figured out. Twenties are for making mistakes, taking chances, being young, and most importantly LEARNING ABOUT LIFE.
I have made the mistake of taking my life way too seriously these past few years. I assumed that I am supposed to have everything planned down to the last finite detail.. The only place that has gotten me is on the phone with my mom, crying. No one wants that.
Recently I have decided that I need to step back, enjoy life, do somethings spontaneously and most importantly NOT PLAN EVERY SINGLE DETAIL. Becoming an adult will come fast enough but for now I need to relax.
The more I realize this about myself the more at ease I feel with the direction my life is headed. In no way am I a crazy adrenaline junky, but a little bit of split decision making and excitement may not be a bad thing every once in a while. After all, we’re only twenty once.